LA Is Not Okay (#381)

Los Angeles is never quiet. The county has about 10 million people. Less than half of them speak English at home. There are so many races and religions that not everyone sleeps in on the same holidays. We have 80 school districts, accommodating everything from Jewish High Holy Days to Asian Lunar New Year.

LA County was designed to include many mini-cities, connected by the Pacific Red Car. But since car and oil companies have spent over a century working against public transportation, we’re now mainly connected by freeways. The LA-centric Valentine’s Day card reads: “I love you so much I’d take the 134 to the 101 to the 405 to the 10 for you.* (*Excluding rush hour.)”

The immensity of Los Angeles is hard to explain to non-residents. Until you’ve spent 20 minutes descending over the lights before a night landing at LAX, you probably can’t fully comprehend that LA County is geographically larger than Delaware and Rhode Island combined, and just a little smaller than Connecticut. It has more people than 40 states in the U.S.

Even during the early days of COVID, LA wasn’t quiet. In fact, I ran into more folks than usual when walking my dog early in the morning.

Which made last week eerie.

My windshield after turning on the wipers to get the ash off.

Los Angeles was quiet. There were mornings where Tankie and I saw no one as we walked through our neighborhood.

All we saw were red skies. Falling ash. And smoke.

And yes, of course I was wearing a KN95.

The air quality improved dramatically over the weekend in our area. Sunday morning I woke up to a “good” air quality rating, with minimal particulates.

The sun was shining, the sky was blue. From our hillside in southwestern Los Angeles county, I couldn’t see any smoke.

And yet it was still so, so quiet.

Because everything was canceled. And no, not in the way the MAGA meatheads scream about, which is actually consequences for celebrities being misogynistic, racist, or transphobic.

Local events were canceled. All youth sports were canceled. Grammy events were canceled. Premieres were canceled. The announcement of Oscar nominations was postponed.

Everyone stayed home—unless they were a first responder (including incarcerated firefighters, who you can support here), an animal rescuer, a reporter, or an asshole content creator flying drones into Quebec water bombers.

The screen of Watch Duty, which shows the fires and your location (blue dot)

We spent the week glued to the news, social media, and the literally life-saving new app called Watch Duty, sifting through an INSANE amount of disinformation lies as we tried to figure out what was happening.

And then figured out how we could help.

While also answering calls and texts from every single out-of-state friend and family member who couldn’t remember our address or use Google maps to discern how far away we were from the fires.

I have an enormous family. They are also a very smart family. And yet most of them still checked, individually, to make sure I was nowhere near the fires. It was an absolutely heart-warming pain in the ass.

As I explained to them, I am okay. Physically. Mentally, like every other Angeleno, I am a mess. I am one “Their dog survived the fire!” reel away from tears at all times. I am also one fucking MAGA misinformation meme about how the Black woman mayor of Los Angeles CITY (not the county) is somehow personally responsible for draining the reservoirs of all the surrounding cities from throwing my phone at any house flying a Trump flag.

I am constantly, easily distracted. I started this post 6 days ago. I lost the original draft because I hadn’t saved it when it was “Document 1” and my computer updated overnight. Since then, I’ve managed maybe a paragraph a day.

Like everyone else in SoCal, I deal with a lot of ash. While the air quality has improved, the dirt blown by the initial winds and subsequent fires’ ashfall will continue to cover our streets and sidewalks until it rains. If it rains.

Right now, it looks like even our normally rainy February might be dry.

Our hillside. A picture I took in January of 2023 on the left, January 2025 on the right. Can you tell we’ve had no measurable rainfall for months?

But thanks to fire crews and trucks from all over California, Oregon, and Utah, the Palisades and Eaton fires are gradually being contained. New fires have been put out. Help and support have come from all over the world.

Thanks for making me cry some more, all you kindhearted jerks.

Seriously, though, I appreciate all those who cared, worried, and donated. Which is pretty much everyone except Donald Dickhead Trump and the Californian Republicans who ditched their burning state to go kiss his ass at Mar-a-Lago.

Oh, and billionaire Elon Musk? Keep your incredibly generous donation of 3 rust-prone, rolling dumpsters cybertrucks—supposedly earmarked for one sheriff’s station that lost power.

Teamsters and locals are handling these issues much faster.

 

For those wanting to help, the best way is to donate to the organizations doing good work on the ground here: World Kitchen, the California Wildfire & Disaster Relief Fund, the Pasadena Humane Society, and the Sante D’ Oro Rescue Group.

Here are two of my favorite nonprofit groups that are rescuing and moving animals from LA to help our local shelters make more room: Best Friends, Dogwood Animal Rescue.

Other ways you can help? Stand up for legislators who stand up against fossil fuels.

Clap back against disinformation. 

And never stop caring.

Our Own Grave (#377)

Well, fuck.

I specifically did not write a post before the election about how Harris would win because I didn’t want to jinx it like I did in 2016. Instead, I donated money, wrote letters to voters in swing states, and smugly watched Republicans panic.

I flew a “Harris-Walz” flag and put up a yard sign:

My dad, my friend JM, and even Brilliant Blonde Lawyer Sister were not so sanguine about a Democratic victory. Not even when I extolled the virtues of the Dem’s ground game, the problem with polling Gen Z and Millennials, and the fact that surely America had figured out that TRUMP IS A DODDERING IDIOT AND CONVICTED FELON WHO KILLED HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF AMERICANS WITH A BOTCHED COVID RESPONSE AND THEN ATTEMPTED A COUP.

Sorry, fam. I will never underestimate the stupidity of my fellow white Americans again.

More than one of my social media friends in Europe asked me, “How the hell could this happen?”

The mathematical answer? Based on the projected final vote count, approximately 6 million fewer people voted for Harris than voted for Biden in 2020, while about 2 million MORE people voted for Trump this time around. (Harris will probably get 9-10 million more than Hillary Clinton did in 2016, in case you are wondering.)  The loss of blue voters isn’t due to a declining population, either. The United States has added approximately 6 million eligible voters to the rolls since 2020.

So at least 8 million people couldn’t bring themselves to vote for a Black woman. There’s a word for that: misogynoir.

And 6 million people went from, “Biden’s old, but Trump must be stopped” to “The options are a treasonous, convicted felon rapist or a Black woman? I can’t vote for either. Oh, well.”

As for the 76 million people who  actually vote for Trump? Originally I wrote a long historical explanation for this post. It had dozens of hyperlinks and theories about this country’s glorification of rugged individualism (i.e., willful ignorance and toxic masculinity), the impact of our inability to apologize/make amends for slavery or genocide, and the Republican agenda of defunding education after the Vietnam War.

But I’m gonna spare you all that. Since this country is so enamored of someone who “tells it like it is,”* here’s me, telling it like it really is.

If you’re well-off and you voted for Trump, you’re a selfish asshole. You got yours. You have no empathy and do not care about women dying, the planet becoming unlivable, or Putin annexing Europe. Your money and privilege are, after all, so much more important than mere people.

If you’re middle class and you voted for Trump, you can’t math. Trump plans on more tax cuts for corporations and the wealthy, plus tariffs to destroy the strong economy President Biden painstaking rebuilt from the LAST inept Trump administration.

If you are a white woman who voted for Trump, congrats to you, you good little foot soldier for the white supremacist patriarchy. Welcome to the Republic of Gilead. Kiss your birth control, bodily autonomy, and other rights goodbye, sweetie, especially if you live in a red state. At least that red robe matches the blood on your hands real nice.

And if you’re a naturalized or first generation Trump voter who isn’t a white, male billionaire? You think you’re “one of the good ones,” and are utterly unprepared to be rounded up and deported. Too bad the ICE goons are coming for you no matter how many MAGA hats you wear.

Oh, and if you’re Christian and voted for Trump? No, you’re not. You’re not about feeding the hungry, welcoming the stranger, and loving your neighbor. You’re a Christo-fascist (and Old Testament, at best).

And when any of you Trumpers land in the hole you dug by voting for that vile, fascist monster?

I’m gonna be the first to toss in a shovel full of dirt and say, “We fucking told you so.”

“TWICE.”

 

*Yes, I know Trump doesn’t actually tell it like it is. He just lies.

Looking for Daylight (#329)

There is only one reason I would ever run for President.

My platform would literally have a single plank in it.

This is my whole speech:

“My fellow Americans, I swear to abolish the worst practice the United States has adopted during the modern era—the one responsible for at least a 6% increase in traffic accidents and workplace accidents, an 8% increase in strokes, and a 24% increase in heart attacks. The practice that annually and negatively impacts the mental health of all our students and their test scores.

If elected, I promise to end Daylight Saving Time immediately!”

Yeah. I hate Daylight Saving Time that much. Continue reading Looking for Daylight (#329)

Waiting (#314)

I am not a patient person. I was the kid in the car asking “Are we there yet?” every 10 minutes. My many siblings were equally impatient. Road trips were an endless chorus of questions about how long it was to the bathroom, restaurant, and destination.

Unsurprisingly, we didn’t go on many road trips.

My Chinese-American husband is patient (sadly, he grew up on Oahu, which is too small for road trips). I’m not sure if he’s naturally mellow, or if the tropical “hang loose” vibes worked on his personality the opposite way that the intense, political atmosphere of Washington, D.C. affected me.

Perhaps our different levels of patience exemplify the difference in our cultures. My Western mindset insists that I can control my destiny if I work, scheme, and worry enough. At the very least, maybe I can get someone incompetent fired if I document the crap out of his failings. But Andy doesn’t see the point; people are gonna be stupid and other people are gonna cover for them. That’s life, and you have no control over your own fate, let alone anyone else’s. Why exhaust yourself changing nothing? Continue reading Waiting (#314)

Riot Gear (#313)

I’ve been to marches, protests, and candlelight vigils. Sometimes the police are also in attendance. At the super white, super suburban Women’s March, all the cops wore affable smiles. Some even sported pink hats.

At BLM protests? Lines of police show up in riot gear, generally sparking the following chant:

I don’t see no riot here!
Why are you in riot gear?!

Yesterday, on January 6, 2021, there was an actual riot. Encouraged by the sitting President (and whiny sore loser baby), Trump’s fascist cult broke into the Capitol, trespassing, stealing, and vandalizing.

I watched it unfold on Twitter, NPR, CNN, and NBC News.

I saw no cops in riot gear. Continue reading Riot Gear (#313)

Election Night: Then and Now (#305)

Over 70 million Americans have spent the week holding their breath. We remember how confident we were four years ago. How we arrogantly assumed that the rest of the country saw Donald Trump for what he was: a hateful, racist, incompetent, misogynistic narcissist who would run the country into the ground.

I watched the numbers roll in on CNN and compared it with the New York Times website. And by 7 PM PST, it was clear that Clinton did not have the votes in Michigan, Pennsylvania, and Wisconsin. It was shocking, but true. Numbers don’t lie. The trend was obvious.

My Chinese-American mother-in-law was visiting. She didn’t understand why I was upset. “It will be fine,” she said.

“It will not be fine,” I told her. “With the Senate also Republican, there will be no checks on that man.” I fled to my bedroom. Continue reading Election Night: Then and Now (#305)

The Brilliance of the Teen Brain (#216)

I feel old. Yes, I did just have a birthday. No, I’m not going to tell you which one.

My knees started making noises. The orthopedist assured me that I’m young for creaky knees; it’s probably an unfortunate combination of too much dancing and volleyball. I feel decrepit anyway.

Even so, it’s not my knees that made me realize I’m old.

It’s my brain. Continue reading The Brilliance of the Teen Brain (#216)

Marching on Washington (#170)

In case you missed it, there was a Women’s March on Washington the day after Donald Trump’s inauguration. (No, I can’t bring myself to call him President. Since facts no longer matter, I guess I don’t have to.) The organizers had a permit for 200,000 anti-Trump protesters.

Over a half-million people showed up, with pink hats and hilarious signs.

I was one of them. Continue reading Marching on Washington (#170)

Broken Hearts & Pink Hats (#169)

I’m not a fan of pink. I scorned the traditionally feminine color as a child, insisting that all my clothes had to be blue. This was not easy for my parents, thanks to gendered marketing. Blue dresses were tough, and a girl’s blue bathrobe was downright impossible. They gave me a boy’s blue bathrobe. I loved it.

I wanted a blue winter coat. In the midst of a bitter divorce, struggling financially, my dad didn’t have time to hunt for a blue coat (this was before Amazon). So I wore my blue bathrobe to school. Continue reading Broken Hearts & Pink Hats (#169)